Tears

Yesterday was ehh, good and bad. So it started out me thinking of my future and what it holds, the fact that I got no job and I still ain't with my children.  So many things I have got to do and yet no resource to do it. So the new help left the daycare were my boy goes to before time and the mobile phone attached to them was at home. I panicked even when I knew down in my heart they were safe,#smh humans! And then I had two presentations in the office and an assessment, which made me leave the office late. Then, while sitting in th bus I felt tears well up in my eyes, I decided to walk home from Ogba. Yea! That's a distance but still I didn't feel it cause I had music in my ears.
I FEEL CHOKED.  I need a run or dance studio or something/somewhere  I can expend all the tension built up in me. My eyes are teary all the time, I can't wake up to read at night again or even watch a movie,  imagine me and movies,  but I can't, I guess am that tensed I just sleep it off for the night.

So this big question!  Should I go on air with this blog and expose myself to insults and unwanted comments. How easy is it to take your life been scrutinised by the public eye? I don't have any leads as to the honey business I want to purse. .....

Aiit! M bored