Missing my Main Man

It's like am running mental. I have got my cousins around and my own son isn't hear with me. Is this madness or what? Am I supposed to be in Benin or what? I shed a tear as I write this because I won't blame my son if he detest me, I brought him into this world. He didn't sign up for this. Really what in life am I pursuing if I can't die for my children. I don't mean Kelvin will kill me (well he can), but am saying sacrifice my happiness for theirs. I knew this training will come to an end and difficult choices will be made, but is this how I want to end up. Really??. I don't want to bear his name cause I detest Kelvin, but still I want a life of happiness for my children. MY CHILDREN! !! Can't I even at least try to be close to Osagie. Move to benin and then what happens. ....

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Siege

Fear of the unknown, is a siege. What makes you look at a problem and not see solution. Am in church and the minster of God read 2 kings 7:4-5, and we are made to understand that if you don't come to the realisation of yourself, you won't be pleasantly surprised. I passed the first stage of TNT and passed (by the Holy Spirit) the dangote Test I wrote. It was a tough one but the Lord saw me through. I hate and at the same time enjoy this period am in, Ovulation☺. Why you may ask, am always horny! !. Once I start having exotic day and night dreams I know it's that period. This period I always question my Christianity( do I need to explain more or you understand? 😈). So therefore, I continue the service and THANK GOD FOR IS FAITHFULNESS! !!

WRITE IT DOWN

Can't remember the particular verse in the bible, but what keeps coming to me is 'write down the words so you forget them not' and 'your words have been written in my heart'. Some things are better written down so you don't forget as years go by. I have been called like Paul and these women in the article: http://www.ibelieve.com/faith/11-women-every-christian-should-know.html, for service to humanity and God's kingdom. After hearing all the death prophecy, I got a revelation that its not physical death, but spiritual death that was been seen on my behalf. I have got a lot of things to do, to propagate the Gospel of Jesus. Like Ms Air & Friends, a reality show on living for Christ, a recycling company that will provide jobs and build the economy, a dance studio that will rejuvenate and bring life, encouraging my children as they become world leaders... and the list goes on. I haven't started, so how can my end come. Lord, am broke right now ple...

Ms Air & Friends

So that's the poster of the event am about to organise. I have had these idea since I was in school (Uniben) having different concepts with Mervin, Biz James, Osaro, Amaka and the names are endless. GDS (GOSPEL DANCE STEP). WOW!!! And today of all days an admin staff (nicknamed SP) wants to put a pin into my bubble of joy. Still preparing for my test and then Oga K calls and ask why I have not called back to all his missed calls. But truthfully why haven't I had the courtesy to call back? Maybe it's the fact of actually hearing I LOVE YOU and all those sweet words....ugh!#@%! I remember I actually said it one night he called, but honestly I didn't know when it slipped out cause I was sleeping and was telling him what I can't remember. Note To Self: don't talk while asleep and give your atm pin out#lol. Kisses

Ms Air is One Tough Cookie

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