Ms Air is One Tough Cookie

So that's the poster of the event am about to organise. I have had these idea since I was in school (Uniben) having different concepts with Mervin, Biz James, Osaro, Amaka and the names are endless. GDS (GOSPEL DANCE STEP). WOW!!! And today of all days an admin staff (nicknamed SP) wants to put a pin into my bubble of joy. Still preparing for my test and then Oga K calls and ask why I have not called back to all his missed calls. But truthfully why haven't I had the courtesy to call back? Maybe it's the fact of actually hearing I LOVE YOU and all those sweet words....ugh!#@%! I remember I actually said it one night he called, but honestly I didn't know when it slipped out cause I was sleeping and was telling him what I can't remember.  Note To Self: don't talk while asleep and give your atm pin out#lol. Kisses

I have got so many things on my plate. 1. I am preparing for my Chevron aptitude test on the 28th. 2. Organising Ms Air& friends for the 29th. 3. Preparing my safety presentation for 25th 4. NCDMB assessment on the same 28th morning. 5. Electrical specification for 26th. Now I can't even read for my CAPM exam, and it's coming soon oh my! Lord Jesus, I ask for Mercy, Favour and Grace.

My today is 'One Kind'.. Am a little bit lost. So am on this training,my focus is on Process and Electrical Engineering. #@? rite? I ask myself the same question 'how far can chemical be to Electrical???' And am to work on a Specification for UPS.... Am reading stuff and am like shit!shit! what have you done to yourself. Am to submit this deliverable by Monday and yet I have not done jack.... Lord Send Help! My electrical team guy does not help matters, even though he is busy with other stuff ,he has always had this attitude of why a chemical engineer will be rubbing shoulders with him... well.... In other news,my CAPM exam is coming soon and I have got to prepare. His thoughts are of good and not evil to bring me to an expected end and so I stand on the promises of God and am not shaking. Though things may not seem to be as it ought to, I will Overcome.

So today, I remember the first time I laid eyes on him... He was wearing a black prada shirt and jeans. Omo, He looked like one ajebo and was complaining that my room door had a made a hole in his shirt. If you see the hole sef,over tiny was doing it. Anywaz, my point is I remember the first day, cause I think I feel in love. Poor Me. If I knew 9 years down the line I would be complaining or writing stories of my life based on that meeting.. I would have forced my eyes closed or slept off while he gisted with my room-mate and neighbours. Still, I enjoy how my life is unfolding. Everyday I see reasons why I am grateful to God for allowing me thread this path. But seriously ,I am really ill. Down with the flue and self medicating for malaria. I know,I know, its bad practice, but still am doing it. My reading for today is Psalm 107:3 (ESV)  He   turns a desert into pools of water    a parched land into springs of water.

My sis #lol, She was having fun shaking what I can't see.... So I need a job, tried marketing i.e selling business and I didn't find it funny, let's just say am too impatient to be dragging money from peeps.  Now am faced with the option of applying for scholarships. I still don't see the need to apply for any yet cause am like, how will I take my boys with me?, cause there is no plan to leave them for anyone, done that too many times to do it again. Confessions of the righteous. ... It is well with me and my household.  You know! I was just going to complain and say how sad I feel, when I remembered that positive , scriptural thinking and declaration produces results. So therefore, Phi 4:19 And my God will meet all your needs according to his glorious riches in Christ Jesus. Stay blessed y'all.

Lagos carnival 2015 was today. Missed it cause am ill, but met some beautiful ladies close to my house, hence the pix. So I guess I was still a part of it #lol. I have exams coming up and I can't seem to read for even 10 mins. It's sad really.... All I think of is why am here at this time. Am 28 and apart from my children I haven't accomplished any other thing.  I remember my dreams  that by 24 I should be working by 28/29 my recycling company should have been established, I should have started my dance company as a side kick, I should have been in and out of this county uncountable times and most importantly I should be motivating the younger generation on how to get to their potential and have fun doing it. So many should ..... God is on the throne. Am listening to Jesus Culture and worshipping God for who He really has been and who He is. My testimonies are far more than my worries. Till I come your way......

My 2 year old boy took this picture and there are actually two things I learn from it: 1. If you can't handle something, the result will show. 2. Life sometimes can be a blur. You may think you are seeing well but, it's all confusing and not straight. I hate the fact that he does not want to come see my parents, giving the excuse of been there done that story. Before you jump to conclusions , he was only told to wait till after my university gradation and I  wanted after my service was over. And I also think I gave him mind to talk, by going about signing the marriage contract in court. We're am I going with this story......Lost track. I guess I just want to write .... Later then.

A happy Chap by Default..... Another beautiful day and I forgot my earrings at home, realised in the bus on my way to work this morning. So Kelvin called me last night, we talked for a while and the conversation ended with "goodnight babes". Everyday something new. I NEED A JOB...  Can I really continue in this relationship. He really does not respect my Ideas and as I call him, One way Traffic, No dialogue, No compromise. I don't believe I can do all them my grandma's style of chop slap at home and keep quite..Marriage is like that. I am too impatient. We don't have to be married, or do we? Nigeria and culture sef. I want a divorce or so I think. I guess we just have to see a marriage counsellor. But does it make sense to pay 4 one. Omo oh! When did life become so complicated...

Dear Diary, My Mind is up and down. I know what I want, but still don't know if it is write or wrong. I love my children, two wonderful boys but I cant stand their father's arrogance. He asked for a divorce, but now wants me home for the children's sake, or so he claims, and wants me to quit my job and stay home.  You may not understand the full story now, but as time goes on I will explain at least my part. Its still like a Nigerian home video to me. Soooo....... till I have more time, back to work.